Had told myself to enjoy myself in de hols... but ever since exams ended, dis first few daes have been loaded wif things ive not accomplished n nid to be done, n new stuff too... yah... no time to indulge in wad i want...
Had a really really great time yesterday! Went to ECP to blade wif mervyn n meitoon, sat on de breakwater n chatted while feeling tt really nice sea breeze (got mildly sunburnt in de process... haha), n went on wif window shopping at parkway... b4 i have to be activated back home... cos my dad's come back frm china, my mum's cooked dinner for de whole family, n mi bro gotta leave for camp very soon... had to chiong a cab back... which cost me some $$$... haiz...
Todae when i just woke up wanted to just chill off wif some TV... my mum told me of some policy she just bought n wanted me to read all de terms n conditions b4 doing up a filing online... OMG!!! it means to read another book wif contents tt look like i wuld find in exams... just 3 days aft i ended my last paper!!! sianz...
Still got lotsa stuff to do for Jam X... n dis being a really crucial time gotta do a lot liao... mite even burn up de whole of my hols... dunno wad to do... n felt very bad cos i had to mention abt Jam X to mervyn n meitoon when we supposed to be enjoying our outing! arrrgh!!!
No!!! Im supposed to find Jam X enjoyable n fun! But have no such nice feelings now... lotsa probs onie... think i will onie relive de feeling when de prelims come n de finals come... but till then, nid to brace up n work hard if i wan de things to work out... yea...
In life, we live based on many restrictions, and work wad we can in de light of those resrictions... n if we find things unfavourable for now, must brace up n work towards de end result u wan! dis dun onie apply to exams, but to wadever u do...
Even in playing computer games, u nid to complete de game given de restrictions given to u...
Even leisurely surfing de net is met wif restricions in connection to internet... n it does not come cheap...
Even when u arrange an outing, u nid to consider all those whu r gg, n wad u wanna do or whr u wanna go to...
Even when u call someone up, whether for work-related stuff or simply a chat, de person u wanna tok to muz be free to pick up de call, or nearby...
All these things, though really important in life... sometimes can be exasperating...
Mebe thr really is no meaning to de term "complete freedom"...