el_M: In the moonlight...

Sunday, April 01, 2007

was i too busy? maybe... but how can someone on IA be so busy??? yah id admit my IA is fun, having to learn a lot... but is dis kinda workload fit for an intern??? im blardy working like a full-time engineer at a fraction of de pay! n now comes de woes of marketing... it means having to make ppl happy thru ways and means... its not how good ur products are, but how happy ur clients are... i dunno... mebe its work stress, n im hardly coping well, mebe...

wad more, when i go home, i expect to be welcomed into a haven, free frm worries n responsibilities, n i can sit down or lie down to relax aft a hard day... do i have it? thr r still so many things i have to help mi mum worry over... wad wif all de CPF n bank letters i have to look thru which i half-dunno, n try to solve de issues (tts de bad thing of having ur dad work overseas)... helping out with housework with mi mum accusing me of not helping enough (seriously, define enough)... helping to run errands without failure, each time i refuse will be met with disapproval... wad more can i say?

maybe i am too whiny now, but give me a break man! a man cant do with a strong facade all de time, he'll breakdown from the stress one fine day... i think i wun come to that, cos i still can handle all these... de most when i cant take it anymore, id just throw them aside, n go live my own life... i noe as i get older i nid to be more responsible, but y does EVERYTHING demands responsibility??? as much as i acknowledge tt i have to think thru n weigh things b4 acting, i seriously hate it if i have to do tt for everything!!!

thr is no such thing as a perfect employee, a perfect son, or a perfect man... everyone errs, including me...

FUCK...

Dennis ~ 1:55 pm