el_M: In the moonlight...

Friday, December 30, 2005

thrs onie abt 24hrs left for yr 2005, n soon, 2006 will come... n im hoping 2006 comes wif a BANG!!!

looking back i think even it seems 2005 had been a rather difficult yr for me, it had been rather fulfiling... learnt a lot of things abt life... some really fun lessons, some hard n painful... but yea i think i re-emerged a better person as a whole...

didn do well managing my time... n ended up super stressed at crunch times in de sem... thinking of those weeks of juggling 3 tests wif 2 assignments plus some other commitments, and also tt hols which i was involved in 3 camps... totally wore me out... really muz stop n think b4 i wanna take on responsibilities... cos no matter how much energy i have (or i think i have) thr will alwaes be a limit... so yea muz think twice b4 i take on any new responsibilities haz...

2005 is also a year tt taught me to be more proactive to get things i want... do wad i wan n not be afraid... but definitely not be reckless... thrs alwaes a point whr i shdnt cross... but yah, i realised tt for many things im still far far below tt line, n havent expressed my wants clearly enuff... shd reassess myself on tt... n get myself clear on wad i want to do, wad i want to get for dis new yr...

along this tumultous year, i made a lot of new frens... n its this grp of frens tt have been cheering me on, keeping me strong during those tough stressful times hahaz... i really muz say tt NUS is a really nice place, even though de studying can get sucky at times, but the frens u make thr will really be those tt can share weal n woes wif u... muz treasure them... i wun name u guys but u shd noe whu u are... HEARTFELT THANX TO U ALL!!!

furthermore been seeing lots of things happen ard this world... got de impression tt things have been bad in 2005, wad wif terrorism n bombings... even nature had been really cruel... but all these r things i have no control over... onie can hope things can get better... and be more vigilant!

quite a lot of things i put down here liao... mebe i can call all these as my new yr resolutions ba... yah... but mebe i wuld be adding more very soon... cos im still in de learning phase... learning to become a better me!

so pplz, jiayou! n a happy new yr to all of u!

hoping for a better tmr... like a magnificent sunrise view aft a damn cold nite... like a bird that soars thru the skies carrying nuthing but good news...

Dennis ~ 11:39 pm

Sunday, December 25, 2005

haha MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!!

dis yr i spent it wif mi family as usual... wif a whole-day xmas feast! ok it dun seem much of a feast la... started at lunch but cant finish so carried it on to dinner haha... n de spaggetti we cooked in de aftnoon, i added my touch to it for dinner!!! ey u all dun anyhow think ar... i just took de leftover spaggetti frm lunch n stir fried wif garlic n olive oil... u noe... spaggetti olio e aglio... its nice man! trust me!!!

now lemme see wad im left wif for dis xmas... yah! really wanna go down to centrepoint to look at de xmas deco, n savour wads left of xmas dis yr... wif all de colourful lighting n stuff! yah noe... tt magnificent deco at centrepoint wif all those orchard rd lights... nice!!!

den nxt is to get moi lazy arse down to sentosa to enjoy de sun n de sea! dis to be preferably b4 new yr... or if not... die die muz go b4 sch (or rather, suffering) term begins...

yah nid to map out wad i shd do quickly... its onie 1 week b4 new yr!!! CHIONG!!!

Dennis ~ 8:01 pm

Saturday, December 24, 2005

silent night, holy night

all is calm, all is bright

round yon virgin mother and child

holy infant so tender and mild

sleep in heavenly peace

sleep in heavenly peace...

Dennis ~ 12:33 am

Friday, December 23, 2005

hi pplz... it has been real long since i updated already... mebe i had been too busy la... but come to think of it, busy even in de hols... ridiculous rite?

i can just say tt dis hols has been mostly downs for me... so much so tt im actually looking fwd to de sem opening again so tt i can mug mug mug n forget abt any other problems i have... trying to run away i am... yar...

im disappointed in myself, for not being to get things done, for not being able to care enuff for my family n frens, n for not making my own life better... now all i can do is to keep my faith, n believe in myself, to work really hard... i shall overcome!!!

xmas is coming ard de corner, n i seriously have no such mood... dunno how im gonna enjoy dis festive season...

i really nid to go out, smell de fresh air out thr, n all tt nature has in store for me... mebe go ECP so tt i can scream into the oncoming waves... or something tt can make me feel better...

gotta keep faith... tmr will definitely be better... im sure... yea...

Dennis ~ 2:59 pm

Saturday, December 10, 2005

just wondering... how much does it take to make someone give up on something?

i believe its really a lot, esp if tt something is very important, very dear to him/her...

but now, im seeing such a thing unfolding b4 me... i really dunno wad to say... here i am putting my best effort in it, n im already seeing it... de very sight of giving up... i really dunno...

didn i hear frm u tt dis thing is ur passion? its de thing u do? i noe things r not gg well at dis moment, n dis is kinda like a do-or-die period... but here, u wanna give it up?

mebe its my fault all along... i hadnt been able to alwaes be thr when needed... had other priorities too... mebe i had placed my priorities wrongly... but wuld i have done differently if i were able toturn back de time?

dunno y is tt so... but dis thing has got me to be real worried... more so than any previous issues... n i might not be able to sleep to9...

i still have to persevere!

Dennis ~ 1:00 am

Friday, December 09, 2005

Well wad can i say... as i have been thinking tt things r bad enuff... more shit comes!!!

De supposed hell-week has just passed by, but i have experienced no sense of satisfaction of gg thru it in 1 piece... its because of things tt churn out tt r giving me a feeling of having another hell week quite soon... mebe even nxt week...

Learnt frm doing jam x tt shit happens, n it multplies!!! Dunno y but i think tt shit comprises of living cells tt can just divide... causing de numbers to rise at a exponential rate... n they r so hard to clear!!! mebe im just unlucky la... but y me??? at dis rate i may even start hating to do jam x liao... its true... mebe it will be offset by a restounding success in de end... making dis project my pride n joy... but will thr be one???

N yah, of all times, i just HAVE to be sick NOW!!!

Some things i realised so far frm doing jam x...

1. Results r definitely not proportional to effort put in... depends on luck too, which i seriously dun have now...

2. Anything tt can go wrong WILL go wrong!!!

3. The media is a dark, hellish world of sins, characterized by constant bullying n stabbing... FREAKISH!!! Nvr dabble in de media unless its ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY!!! Worse than dabbling in the occult i tell u...

4. Sometimes, life just oh-so-LURVES to play games wif u... think its happening now... trying to test how much shit i can hold...

Wad to do? PERSEVERE!!!

I WUN BE DEFEATED SO EASILY!!!

COME ON!!! TRY ME!!!

Dennis ~ 8:11 pm

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

exams r over, but wonder y it seems tt my life is still in the same tempo as b4... really, dis hols does not look in any way like one... thrs so many things to settle!!! so much so tt im still gg to NUS as if its a normal sch day... i really hate it...

since sat i had been gg down to sch, n dis is not gonna stop till fri... all for moving out of kuok, CSC, jam x... urgh!!!

things have not been gg too well for jam x too... lots of stuff to resolve... n at times i really wanna scream n snap at ppl... but realise tt it wun be of any use... it is de time to move fwd liao... no use pulling ppl back n find faults n stuff yea...

i muz trudge on!!! brace myself for it all!!! i muz get myself n all things i do out of this blardy mess!!! muz believe in myself!!! but sometimes, i simply cant find de strength...

wonder how it will be like when sch starts... think i wun be fully-recharged to face a new sem... id rather think i wun even be recharged at all! mite end up even more tired... shitz...

dis hols mite be one tt i will look back wif regrets... regrets of not spending time wif my family n frens... regrets of not enjoying myself to max... regrets of not even treasuring dis hols... regrets...

to think all those things im doing now, i wun be paid even a cent! even slaves have it better, at least they have food n lodging taken care of, no matter how fucked up! i have nuthing... all food still on my own acct...

im so not gg to take anymore projects or so in de nxt hols already... at least not in any OC... so how to get CCA points to stay in school? heck care liao!

to all my frens whu come across dis: i nid strength! give me if u think u can... yea...

dun like dis hols... at all!

Dennis ~ 12:09 am

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

todae i shall make 1 announcement!

i found de bloggys of 2 of my frens!!! thru some unorthodox method... hahahahaha... ... ...

well, but one of them was sooooooo stingy... dun wanna let me link him... humph!!! stingy fellow... (dun tell u all whu he is... haa im stingy too)

he wanted to protect himself la... lest he get sued for making some "racist" comments hahahaha... but yea... private la... so just unlucky for him i found his blog...

too bad for **** (blog fren 1) and ****** (blog fren 2)

Dennis ~ 2:03 pm

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.

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Dennis ~ 1:02 pm

Friday, December 02, 2005

woo forsee a busy week coming up...

tmr will be LIME's party! gg down to man booth... n have fun hahaha!!!

dunno wad i have on sunday haha... mebe go out?

mon - move out of Kuok...
tues - Yishun SCS camp meeting...
wed, thurs - CSC workshop...
fri - Jam X meeting...

hahaha jialat... gonna steam liao... woooosh!!!

Dennis ~ 7:22 pm

Thursday, December 01, 2005

ok some one frm above...

pls bless me...

bless me so tt...

YEAH!!! ;P

Dennis ~ 11:27 am

wah... had to pull myself out of bed dis morn aft Mamboing at Zouk last nite... now aching all over, n had to try my really really best to speak even simple words... cos got lack of voice to support haha...

yea never had such fun in months liao... n it was de best Mamboing experience i ever had! dunno how i managed to dance so madly ytd... yea really let myself off completely!

haha think is tt Flaming Lamborghini i had... remember aft tt one i had a funny feeling n just danced ALL de way, thou it does not have any strong alcoholic taste, yea... pplz! if u do go down to Zouk, be sure to order tt thing, onie if during de 1-for-1 hr, n u r feeling rich... tt thing cost a whooping $23 bucks! n while it does not have a strong alcoholic taste i think it can send u to the heavens quite quickly (yea i think, cos i felt sooooo high aft downing it)

den aft tt it was dance dance dance... 12midnight... 1am... 2am... de clock just ticked by as i danced it all off! came to de point of near exhaustion (ya noe de feeling aft a half-marathon yar... wow) tt we left for home...

when my frens went collecting their bags... de things tt happened nxt got me screaming! tt deejay went on to play "This Love" (Maroon 5) n "Where is the Love" (Black Eyed Peas) in succession, when i was abt to leave!!! got this wasted feeling for missing 2 of my favourite tracks yea... but nvm la haha!! it was fun anywae...

mebe nxt wed id be gg again... yea... den another time of wad dey say "Dance Till Dawn"!!!

so hmm... Mambo Nite again, or Zoukout???

Dennis ~ 10:51 am