el_M: In the moonlight...

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

wow... wad a day...

pooled for a WHOLE aftnoon, n went window shopping in de evening wif my cousins...

seems tt thr much more things to come, gg out, sentosa, clubbin... etc etc etc... n thrs still jam x!!!

yea since exams over its time to go full gear into it liao! gotta make dis a big success cos not onie my happiness will depend on it, but a whole lot others too! so muz jiayou!!!

n LIME's party dis coming sat, n we have a booth thr! looking fwd to tt day...

cmon we can do it!!!

Dennis ~ 1:03 am

Monday, November 28, 2005

Had told myself to enjoy myself in de hols... but ever since exams ended, dis first few daes have been loaded wif things ive not accomplished n nid to be done, n new stuff too... yah... no time to indulge in wad i want...

Had a really really great time yesterday! Went to ECP to blade wif mervyn n meitoon, sat on de breakwater n chatted while feeling tt really nice sea breeze (got mildly sunburnt in de process... haha), n went on wif window shopping at parkway... b4 i have to be activated back home... cos my dad's come back frm china, my mum's cooked dinner for de whole family, n mi bro gotta leave for camp very soon... had to chiong a cab back... which cost me some $$$... haiz...

Todae when i just woke up wanted to just chill off wif some TV... my mum told me of some policy she just bought n wanted me to read all de terms n conditions b4 doing up a filing online... OMG!!! it means to read another book wif contents tt look like i wuld find in exams... just 3 days aft i ended my last paper!!! sianz...

Still got lotsa stuff to do for Jam X... n dis being a really crucial time gotta do a lot liao... mite even burn up de whole of my hols... dunno wad to do... n felt very bad cos i had to mention abt Jam X to mervyn n meitoon when we supposed to be enjoying our outing! arrrgh!!!

No!!! Im supposed to find Jam X enjoyable n fun! But have no such nice feelings now... lotsa probs onie... think i will onie relive de feeling when de prelims come n de finals come... but till then, nid to brace up n work hard if i wan de things to work out... yea...

In life, we live based on many restrictions, and work wad we can in de light of those resrictions... n if we find things unfavourable for now, must brace up n work towards de end result u wan! dis dun onie apply to exams, but to wadever u do...

Even in playing computer games, u nid to complete de game given de restrictions given to u...

Even leisurely surfing de net is met wif restricions in connection to internet... n it does not come cheap...

Even when u arrange an outing, u nid to consider all those whu r gg, n wad u wanna do or whr u wanna go to...

Even when u call someone up, whether for work-related stuff or simply a chat, de person u wanna tok to muz be free to pick up de call, or nearby...

All these things, though really important in life... sometimes can be exasperating...

Mebe thr really is no meaning to de term "complete freedom"...

Dennis ~ 11:31 am

Saturday, November 26, 2005

GREETINGS!!! im finally free frm all those shit!

finally step into home aft like... 3 weeks at Kuok... feel sooooo happy to see Mum n Princess again! Wow!!!

but suddenly, had dis feeling of emptiness... suddenly, i kinda lost my direction... suddenly, HAVE NUTHING TO DO!!!

now, sitting in front of my lappie watching all those movies i downloaded during exam-mugging period haha... also will get sian one... haiz...

MUZ GO OUT TMR!!! missed life outside liao... time to regain it!

Dennis ~ 1:52 am

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Whew wad a day... thot i finally wuld have a nice lunch at de engin canteen, but it just had to be marred by some nincompoop!!! Thinking abt it onie makes me pissed... grr...

BASTARD is how i describe such kind of ppl... basically noeing wad ure doing is downright rude n inconsiderate, but still go ahead... onie barbarians do such a thing...

Was supposed to chope 2 tables for moi frens thr while they go buy their food... yea we noe better to leave our stuff unattended thr, so i was thr to ensure that they wuld have a seat when they come back wif de stuff...

Girl came... n took a seat at de table beside me... i told her tt de seat is taken... so she apologised n promptly stood up to go ard finding another place... GOOD GIRL...

Couple of mins later, 2 guys came... erm i think i shd say 1 guy n 1 BASTARD... they look like they r PRCs... but well, i have nuthing against PRCs, but wad happened nxt got my impression of PRCs plummeting down by an impressive 50%...

Ok lemme do a short description here... guy looks normal, slim n all... typical... BASTARD was big! like some 1.8m or wad... at least 100kg yea... standing together makes guy look like a '1' n BASTARD looks like a '0'... frm here i shall stick to 1 n 0 so as to keep my blog frm getting to BASTARDY...

'0' sat down... BESIDE ME!!! i said "sorry these seats r taken..." then '0' stood up, looked ard and barked "i dun see anyone ard" n proceeded to seat down n started eating... '1' followed suit...

we were just lucky to find another 2 tables nearby soon, so retreated yea... no point toking sense to a COW la...

'1' n '0' finished their meal quickly n left... n when they walked past our table, '0' SMIRKED AT ME!!! ARRRRGGHH!!!!!!

Damn... beaten... sense of masculine pride lost... I WILL NEVER FORGET DIS!!!

To '1': well i dun blame u, u just followed a fren... n dun bother toking sense to him, as i said, no point reasoning wif a COW... just stop befriending such SCUM b4 u become one too...

To '0': F's for ALL UR MODULES dis sem n subsequent sems!!! U will get ur retribution one day! BULLYING DOES NOT PAY!!! Not happy? SUE ME LAR!!!

Still quite pissed... but heck, will be better tmr...

An afterthought: '0'... big on de outside, hollow on de inside...

Dennis ~ 1:26 am

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Woke up dis morning to find de sun shining thru my windows...

But de weather is still cold frm de rain ytd...

Havent had dis kind of of weather for a damn long time liao...

Haa... Perfect sleeping weather.... haiz... zzzzzz...................................

OMG! NO! WAKE UP! STUDY!!!

Dennis ~ 10:45 am

Think it worked... told myself to look fwd n buck up aft tt fall... its time to salvage de situation... so must put in more effort... yea...

Actually, im pleased wif myself todae... i culd actually max out wadever time i had... started de mugging frm 1pm when i reached clubroom till like 12 midnite, taking onie toilet breaks n dinner break... mebe another couple of bridge games... think i clocked as much as 10 hours in front of books... amazing!

Finished fluid mech revision todae... wads left is practice qns liao... n also covered lots of stuff in biochem... left wif onie citric acid cycle n cell cycle... mebe look up on some stuff on cloning too...

Its time to buck up more! Im gonna have to test my limits tmr... see how long i can really last... yea... muz put in as much as i can put in liao... dis is de FINAL LAP!!!

One more time... 25th!!! HERE I COME!!!

Dennis ~ 3:02 am

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

My 3rd paper's ended... n im really affected by it... feeling sad n lost for a long while aft de paper... even till now, still has tt feeling of sadness n fear...

Anyone can guess how well i did for tt paper... or rather, badly... Had no time to complete it n left 15 marks undone, while hearing other ppl easily completing it, well y is tt so? its bcos i seemed to have been struck by a blank for an entire 30mins in the paper! just forgot all my facts n stuff, and had to pick them back up again as i went along the paper...

It was supposed to be an easy paper! Yah i found some qns straightfwd... but still ended up staring at them for dear time!!! Slowed down my progress a lot... yea... If i did tt badly for a difficult paper i wun feel so damn shitty cos others will do equally badly, but now... haiz...

Wad more... i found tt i lost 20 more marks on a horrendous careless mistake!!! Wad could be worse???

In short, I think im gonna smell my 1st C grade, maybe worse... D? F?... and i feel really, really bad abt it... in fact, horrible... an utter waste... considering how much effort i had put in on my studies dis time round...

Dun console me... i hope time washes all wounds... can onie just try my best not to think abt it n concentrate on my last 2 papers...

Would freedom smell so sweet dis time round??? Doubt so...

Look on de brighter side... tapaoing dis module is certainly better than tapaoing organic chem... haiz...

Dennis ~ 12:28 am

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Today marks de end of my SHIONGEST module taken so far in NUS... ORGANIC CHEM! It really feels a BIG load taken off me after we were allowed to leave de exam hall... wow...

Now im left with 3 papers... though i do worry abt them, its not as much as organic chem... have dis feeling of taking anything tt comes along liao... made me braver... yea...

Let's just recall how i did for those 2 papers i done b4 i really throw them all away, FOR GOOD!!!

CN2121 - Thermodynamics... Very hard and confusing module, louzy lecturer n tutor... wads worse? Thankfully he set a real easy paper, onie a wee-bit tricky, not some god-noes-wad-i-never-seen-b4 kinda thing... So ya, i think i did well, but u noe de prob wif an easy paper... everyone will score! n wif de bell-curve system in NUS... i think id better pray hard for a good grade liao...

CM1501 - Well-waddya-noe? Horrid module!!! So blardy many darn facts to memorise, so many reactions (think can easily count 300 of them) and so many mechanisms (another 50 perhaps) for us to cram into our tiny brains! Shundeng said it rite... most ppl do like organic chem till they actually take dis module... guess i have become one of them... Really, if there's anything i wuld wanna suggest to improve on this module, i'd say "Make the final exam open-book!!!" Come to the final exam which i just taken, well, a couple of qns cant do (didn memorise well enuff hahaz) n another couple of careless mistakes... think i did quite ok lar... just hope thr not too many "shen" ard me lor... i really wan an A for dis module, considering de effort i had put in... think muz touch Mighty Mao's golden hair more often liao...

Left 3 more papers, still in de chionging mode... feel so sianz... so taking a break now to update dis place n play a couple of games...

So for all whu r braving de exams, JIAYOU!!! its now onie a matter of days b4 its all over! Show them wad u got!

Dennis ~ 9:47 pm

Friday, November 18, 2005

Judgement day comes in mere hours time already... yea de stress, de agony... for crying out loud...

To all those whu have been ard these few weeks or months... these times tt we had been mugging (oops soree Mer, i noe u dun like dis word... just dis once ok?) wif me frm morn till nite... or even thru de nite sometimes... thank u all for ur support, ur lending of courage, ur care n concern, ur company... or for much of de time, just being there... without u all i wuldnt have been able to face all these sickening adversities alone...

The nxt few days will be worse, much worse... its like one day for one module... n seriously, im only ready for de paper im gonna take in 6 hours time... i think... so maybe, just maybe u all might see me freak out in any of the nxt few daes... if i do... im really really really soree to u all... lets blast it all together ok?

Yah n abt tt thing of coming back to de clubroom to disturb u all after moi last paper, ok i promise i wun... i lived thru all this shit already n noe u all r facing similar shit, if not worse... so even if i come back, its just to help u all... haha give u all welfare n stuff... wun disturb... PROMISE!!!

2 weeks of Kuok liao... i miss my mum, i miss princess, i miss home, i miss home-cooked food... haiz...

Dennis ~ 1:44 am

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Well just thot mebe i will have dis qn for organic chem or biochem...

Wad are the similarities and differences between cigerattes and chocolates?

Well, mebe i wun be able to ans dis fully cos im a non-smoker... but i guess one similarity is tt nicotine (in cigarettes) and cocoa (in chocolates) r both addictive. Addictive effects for nicotine r scientifically tested and proven, while for cocoa, though thr are no scientific proof, de person typing dis is an addict already... I'M IN LURVE WITH CHOCOLATES!!!

The onie difference btw them is their effects when mixed wif coffee. I read up todae tt caffine (in coffee) when reacted wif nicotine (in cigarettes) forms adrenaline, which will DEFINITELY keep ppl awake... but no matter, I SHALT NOT SMOKE FOR THAT!!! as for chocolates, its all based on my own experiences... i drank Nescafe Mocha (coffee+ chocolate) b4 a lecture n found myself sleeping thru it... some more, today i had strong coffee while mugging for exams, so thot of pampering myself wif a Mac Hot Fudge Sundae, end up eating it while downing de coffee - another coffee+chocolate combi... nxt min i found myself dozing off at my notes...

So those above r my points of similarities n differences for cigarettes and chocolates... cant think of anymore... haha think im gg to score an A for organic chem n biochem!!!

yar rite!!! dream on!!!

Dennis ~ 12:39 am

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Let's give myself an estimate how much ive covered so far...

In order of exam dates...
CN2121 (18th Nov - Fri) - 80%
CM1501 (19th Nov - Sat) - 80%
CN2123 (21st Nov - Mon) - 70%
LSM1401 (24th Nov - Thurs) - 10%... *SHIT!!!*
CN2122 (25th Nov - Fri) - 60%

Today is 15th Nov - Tues, time 11pm...

In conclusion... I THINK I'M SCREWED!!!

Dennis ~ 10:56 pm

Monday, November 14, 2005

Today i shall solemnly declare tt...

Ngee Ann Poly canteen food is 100 TIMES BETTER than YIH canteen food!!!

Dennis ~ 2:51 pm

Saturday, November 12, 2005

"Bang Head Here"

Dis was de notices tt i saw on like... every lift landing in Kuok! Some advert on exam destress session, which i dun really care, wuld rather Bang Head! hahaha...

Hey, say truly when i first saw it i was really tempted to do it... hahaha crazy me... thanx goodness i didn cos i wuld have ended up in NUH, cant take de exams, n all de effort for nuthing, also tt means spending another sem in tt shitty faculty... *shiver*

Oh yah! Adrian (my class Adrian, not my kc...) had laminated his IBM lappie wif such a notice too! Not like me, put up such a nice FF7 Advent Children pic... haha dunno wads his prob... just praying tt by now his lappie is still surviving... not murdered by Adrian n his incessent head-banging... hahaha!!!

Ok, 13 more days of head-banging... shd GAMBATTE!!!

*BANG!!!* Ouch...

Dennis ~ 10:14 pm

Yayy!!! Im now part of de Roosters!!! So happy!!!

N i finally got to be able to makan wif them ppl, aft sooooo many steamboat sessions which NICELY clashed wif my Yishun sessions... heh...

Really found them to be a bunch of very nice ppl, very creative, n very dedicated! Like how they all made up one nice video recording and such a nice present for Mika for her b'dae! Great job pplz!!! Would really wanna have more such fun get-together wif u all!

Also todae went jogging wif some of them roosters ppl... really mad sia!!! run all de way to haw par villa n back??? n de distance was wad? 6 clicks? 7? 8? dun really noe but found it to be DAMN LONG!!! havent run soooo much in like... 2 yrs liao... im old n useless haha...

well, 1 blardy week to my 1st paper liao... i think aft such a long whiny time of mugging mugging n more mugging... i think ive come to the point of just taking it all as they r... just continue pia-ing till my last paper... just do my best... HECK WAD RESULTS I WILL GET... cos even if i get shitty results n end up seeing my CAP plunge like no ones business, i can still console myself tt ive already done my very best... so thr... lets not worry abt de workload n stuff n just PIA!!!

ok guess its time to sleep... MUZ adopt de practice of sleeping early n waking up early liao... if not will turn nocturnal n will suffer in my morning papers...

14 more days to freedom!!! 25th november, HERE I COME!!!

Dennis ~ 2:01 am

Thursday, November 10, 2005

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

To you...

Dennis ~ 12:52 am

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Today i revised my Fluid Mech to realise tt Prof Chen actually used DIVERGENCE THEOREM to prove a formula... OMG!!! i shd have paid more attention in my MA1506 classes n not sold my notes away!!!

Regret...

Dennis ~ 6:31 pm