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Thursday, September 29, 2005
Ok some stuff...
Good news: No more tests for me dis week!
Bad news: I think im gonna fail my thermodynamics test!
Good news: No more tests for me dis week!
Bad news: I think im gonna fail my thermodynamics test!
Dennis ~ 8:39 pm
Its 1.20am now...
Bryan just sent an SMS to ALL de Jam X head (including me)... just luckily im not asleep yet... for all those whu r... hahaha wad have i gotta say??
Yah 1.20am... i got a test coming at 9am... think i shd sleep now... but not able to sleep... too nervous i guess... hahaha
A recap of how i fared...
Fluid on monday - CLEARED! hopefully i did well in it haha... cos all moi reasoning r rather... erm... correct yea... but its MCQ so u noe, strange things can happen...
ESS just today (or was it yesterday)... well tt is de DAMN module tt has 10 weekly quizzes, choose best 6... but aft today, im more convinced of 9 choose 6 liao... sianz...
well, give myself another 1/2 hr to MUG MUG MUG b4 sleeping...
Bryan just sent an SMS to ALL de Jam X head (including me)... just luckily im not asleep yet... for all those whu r... hahaha wad have i gotta say??
Yah 1.20am... i got a test coming at 9am... think i shd sleep now... but not able to sleep... too nervous i guess... hahaha
A recap of how i fared...
Fluid on monday - CLEARED! hopefully i did well in it haha... cos all moi reasoning r rather... erm... correct yea... but its MCQ so u noe, strange things can happen...
ESS just today (or was it yesterday)... well tt is de DAMN module tt has 10 weekly quizzes, choose best 6... but aft today, im more convinced of 9 choose 6 liao... sianz...
well, give myself another 1/2 hr to MUG MUG MUG b4 sleeping...
Dennis ~ 1:18 am
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Der time now is 2.34am...
Im gonna have a lecture at erm... how many hours? erm... 8am!
Wad der hell m i still doing online?!?!?!
Im gonna have a lecture at erm... how many hours? erm... 8am!
Wad der hell m i still doing online?!?!?!
Dennis ~ 2:34 am
Sunday, September 25, 2005
"U havent broken up?"
Yah these r words tt i heard last friday... from Fren A to Fren B... i wonder when u hear dis how wuld u react, nvrmind whether its intended for u...
really, i felt SHOCKED hearing tt, even thou it really has nuthing to do wif me... feel tt dis is something really taboo to say to someone whus attached, yah...
perhaps he didn check his words when he said tt, perhaps its outta de blue, perhaps its just to'break de ice', perhaps thr nuthing else to tok abt... erm... perhaps? but im really confused... y wuld he ask such a qn?
well, call me sensitive or over-reacting... but these words got me thinking once in a while during the weekend... well at least something to think abt other than all my boring texts n modules... but till now, i still ask myself tt...
anyone able to tell me? yah... mebe human interaction is really more profound than i think it is...
Yah these r words tt i heard last friday... from Fren A to Fren B... i wonder when u hear dis how wuld u react, nvrmind whether its intended for u...
really, i felt SHOCKED hearing tt, even thou it really has nuthing to do wif me... feel tt dis is something really taboo to say to someone whus attached, yah...
perhaps he didn check his words when he said tt, perhaps its outta de blue, perhaps its just to'break de ice', perhaps thr nuthing else to tok abt... erm... perhaps? but im really confused... y wuld he ask such a qn?
well, call me sensitive or over-reacting... but these words got me thinking once in a while during the weekend... well at least something to think abt other than all my boring texts n modules... but till now, i still ask myself tt...
anyone able to tell me? yah... mebe human interaction is really more profound than i think it is...
Dennis ~ 1:31 am
Sunday, September 18, 2005
i came across this in my mail and was really saddened by its contents...
"Attn to Lady Justice Butler-Sloss. Do you remember February 1993 when a young 3 yr old was taken from Liverpool by two 10-year-old boys. Jamie Bulger walked away from his mother for only a second and Jon Venables took his hand and led him out of the mall with his friend Robert Thompson.
They took Jamie on a walk for over 2 and a half miles, along the way stopping very now and again to torture the poor little boy who was crying constantly for his mommy.
Finally they stopped at a railway track where they brutally kicked him, threw stones at him, rubbed paint in his eyes and pushed batteries up his anus. It was actually worse than this...What these two boys did was so horrendous that Jamie's mother was forbidden to identify his body. They then left his beaten small body on the tracks so a train could run him over to hide the mess they had created. These two boys, even being boys, understood what they did was wrong, hence trying to make it look like an accident.
This week Lady Justice Butler-Sloss has awarded the two boys anonymity forthe rest of their lives when they leave custody with new identities. They will also leave early this year only serving just over half of their sentence. They disgustingly and violently took Jamie's life away - in return they each get a new life.
Please... if you feel, as we do, that this is a grave miscarriage of justice. Copy the entire email. Then add your name at the end... and send it to everyone you can! If you are the 500th person to sign, please forward thise-mail to: cust.ser.cs@gtnet.gov.uk and.. Attention it to Lady Justice Butler-Sloss. Then start the list over again and send to your friends and family.
Rubbish like the Love-Bug virus took less that 72 hours to reach the world. I hope this one does as well.
We need to protect our family and friends from creatures like Robert and Jon. One day they maybe live next door to you and your small children, without your knowledge."
i think that no matter how, even if this issue deals wif the death of a 3-yr-old, i think them guyz had paid enough for their deed... they were but 10 yrs old at tt time n even if they knew wad they did was wrong, they culd not have known how horrible tt deed is...
the judge is rite to give them anonymity and a new identity... its bcos anyone noes tt if their true identity is known, they wuld be outcasted, if tt was the best outcome... well if u wan de worst outcome, think of ancient human sacrifice, or crucification...
thr always is tt part of each and everyone of us tt is de very essence of evil n hatred... wads important tt u dun succumb to them... i believe tt the person whu set up the mail is consumed by hatred to those 2 guys... it just shows tt in this world, ppl do not give u chances...
many ppl JUDGE! but have they thot tt they may not be really suited to judge ppl as they succumb to their emotions? yes in this case, a 3-yr-old is murdered, n i agree in the worst ways possible... but it does not warrant these 2 guys as serial killers! i do hope tt we have to really think over this before forwarding such hate-mails...
do u realise these days we get to see such atrocities as mass-murder, terrorism as such? these issue is but another example! it started from hatred, and now someone has brought this hatred all over the world! hatred knows no bounds and no ends, if we were to keep fueling it...
i do hope to read more msgs on the net, spreading the msg of love and such... no more such hate-mails pls! also, if anyone sees n hears things anywhere that u find shd not be thr... be it dis, the taliban atrocities, NKF scandals or mundane things like whether weilian shd be Superstar or not... DO NOT EVER HATE! if u can express sadness or pity go ahead...
hatred consumes, and it will only make this world a worse place to live in... even "i dun like" is a much better expression than "i hate"... dun ever make hatred synonymous to entropy, which only goes one way - increases n NEVER decreases...
i admit tt at times i may succumb to hatred... im no saint... just hope that i wuld be reminded of wad i said and dispel all hatred before it can be too late...
just forgive and forget...
love to all
el_M
"Attn to Lady Justice Butler-Sloss. Do you remember February 1993 when a young 3 yr old was taken from Liverpool by two 10-year-old boys. Jamie Bulger walked away from his mother for only a second and Jon Venables took his hand and led him out of the mall with his friend Robert Thompson.
They took Jamie on a walk for over 2 and a half miles, along the way stopping very now and again to torture the poor little boy who was crying constantly for his mommy.
Finally they stopped at a railway track where they brutally kicked him, threw stones at him, rubbed paint in his eyes and pushed batteries up his anus. It was actually worse than this...What these two boys did was so horrendous that Jamie's mother was forbidden to identify his body. They then left his beaten small body on the tracks so a train could run him over to hide the mess they had created. These two boys, even being boys, understood what they did was wrong, hence trying to make it look like an accident.
This week Lady Justice Butler-Sloss has awarded the two boys anonymity forthe rest of their lives when they leave custody with new identities. They will also leave early this year only serving just over half of their sentence. They disgustingly and violently took Jamie's life away - in return they each get a new life.
Please... if you feel, as we do, that this is a grave miscarriage of justice. Copy the entire email. Then add your name at the end... and send it to everyone you can! If you are the 500th person to sign, please forward thise-mail to: cust.ser.cs@gtnet.gov.uk and.. Attention it to Lady Justice Butler-Sloss. Then start the list over again and send to your friends and family.
Rubbish like the Love-Bug virus took less that 72 hours to reach the world. I hope this one does as well.
We need to protect our family and friends from creatures like Robert and Jon. One day they maybe live next door to you and your small children, without your knowledge."
i think that no matter how, even if this issue deals wif the death of a 3-yr-old, i think them guyz had paid enough for their deed... they were but 10 yrs old at tt time n even if they knew wad they did was wrong, they culd not have known how horrible tt deed is...
the judge is rite to give them anonymity and a new identity... its bcos anyone noes tt if their true identity is known, they wuld be outcasted, if tt was the best outcome... well if u wan de worst outcome, think of ancient human sacrifice, or crucification...
thr always is tt part of each and everyone of us tt is de very essence of evil n hatred... wads important tt u dun succumb to them... i believe tt the person whu set up the mail is consumed by hatred to those 2 guys... it just shows tt in this world, ppl do not give u chances...
many ppl JUDGE! but have they thot tt they may not be really suited to judge ppl as they succumb to their emotions? yes in this case, a 3-yr-old is murdered, n i agree in the worst ways possible... but it does not warrant these 2 guys as serial killers! i do hope tt we have to really think over this before forwarding such hate-mails...
do u realise these days we get to see such atrocities as mass-murder, terrorism as such? these issue is but another example! it started from hatred, and now someone has brought this hatred all over the world! hatred knows no bounds and no ends, if we were to keep fueling it...
i do hope to read more msgs on the net, spreading the msg of love and such... no more such hate-mails pls! also, if anyone sees n hears things anywhere that u find shd not be thr... be it dis, the taliban atrocities, NKF scandals or mundane things like whether weilian shd be Superstar or not... DO NOT EVER HATE! if u can express sadness or pity go ahead...
hatred consumes, and it will only make this world a worse place to live in... even "i dun like" is a much better expression than "i hate"... dun ever make hatred synonymous to entropy, which only goes one way - increases n NEVER decreases...
i admit tt at times i may succumb to hatred... im no saint... just hope that i wuld be reminded of wad i said and dispel all hatred before it can be too late...
just forgive and forget...
love to all
el_M
Dennis ~ 2:16 pm
Saturday, September 17, 2005
nxt week might possibly be my last session as an yishun regular... im really very sorry to all those yishuners whu stood by me for these 3 series of wonderkids... its really hard for me to leave as yishun has become somewhat of a comfort zone for me... but i think its time for me to venture out of it, and towards a more multi-faceted CSC life...
whu noes, even if i currently have given myself the decision to be ab ad-hoc... i might end up gg down for all the sessions nevertheless? well hopefully i do have tt kind of free time hahaz...
for 3 seasons, ive seen laughter n fun every friday nite at yishun n felt really happy although tired after every session... now, ive decided to do some serious work... i wanna serve... REALLY serve... to do something tt will REALLY make me feel proud of myself... bringing laughter to those whu dun really have...
just in case i wun be able to make it for de future yishun sessions... i nid to really thank all my frens thr... bryan, xianhui, junhui, xiqian, joaling, quek, goo, engkhoon, jingting, jinfa... thr still so manee others thr too... all my seniors n juniors... juniors! muz do well hor! do me n my buddies proud! keep de yishun spirit gg! wanna still feel happy as before nxt time i come back hahaz...
guess im gonna miss de likes of ryan, benjamin, kevin, weechou, samuel, weechong, jason, jeffery, sriram, syazwan... n so many other kids tt i forgot de name laio... paisehz...
but no matter how, im sure i can make it! harden urself dennis! once u decided, dun ever regret! i hope i can...
whu noes, even if i currently have given myself the decision to be ab ad-hoc... i might end up gg down for all the sessions nevertheless? well hopefully i do have tt kind of free time hahaz...
for 3 seasons, ive seen laughter n fun every friday nite at yishun n felt really happy although tired after every session... now, ive decided to do some serious work... i wanna serve... REALLY serve... to do something tt will REALLY make me feel proud of myself... bringing laughter to those whu dun really have...
just in case i wun be able to make it for de future yishun sessions... i nid to really thank all my frens thr... bryan, xianhui, junhui, xiqian, joaling, quek, goo, engkhoon, jingting, jinfa... thr still so manee others thr too... all my seniors n juniors... juniors! muz do well hor! do me n my buddies proud! keep de yishun spirit gg! wanna still feel happy as before nxt time i come back hahaz...
guess im gonna miss de likes of ryan, benjamin, kevin, weechou, samuel, weechong, jason, jeffery, sriram, syazwan... n so many other kids tt i forgot de name laio... paisehz...
but no matter how, im sure i can make it! harden urself dennis! once u decided, dun ever regret! i hope i can...
Dennis ~ 11:57 pm
yup maybe ure rite shaowei...
i may have been too affected by pplz comments abt me...
but well, i do take everyone's comments seriously as im still finding myself...
all i wanna do is to be a better person...
rite?
i may have been too affected by pplz comments abt me...
but well, i do take everyone's comments seriously as im still finding myself...
all i wanna do is to be a better person...
rite?
Dennis ~ 2:32 am
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Hmm... thinking caps turned on again...
So pplz, heres a simple qn u can go think abt... answer it TRUTHFULLY!
What or who do you live for?
I currently have no answer to dis... hopefully a few yrs down de road i may be able to ans...
So pplz, heres a simple qn u can go think abt... answer it TRUTHFULLY!
What or who do you live for?
I currently have no answer to dis... hopefully a few yrs down de road i may be able to ans...
Dennis ~ 7:30 pm
i gotta work hard! grit my teeth! do wadever it takes! NEVER SAY DIE!
dis is a real test for me... n im confident i will break thru! i will!
show em all i got!
dis is a real test for me... n im confident i will break thru! i will!
show em all i got!
Dennis ~ 1:22 am
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
bryan's actions came to a real shock for me today... i noe he's trying to help me, but it really has got me thinking...
think tt im a person whu dun really strive hard to get wad i want... y? well even i dunno... mebe its myself? mebe its shyness? or wad more? bcos of such a character i alwaes find myself on the losing end...
i think i have to come clean with myself... always caring too much about face n stuff... scared tt i lose face, or be sad if i dun get wad i set out for... so for simplicity i dun strive for anything n end up not getting anything...
y am i like tt i may ask myself... was it bcos of tt 1 incident back in jc whr thr were a few times i tried a shot at something i wanted n failed? tt one of them caused me to 'lose a great deal of face'? causing me to creep into my shell of protection n not come out?
well i didn exactly crawl in... its just tt i dun dare to reach out for wad i want now... dis thing has eventually affected my life a GREAT deal... lost sooo many chances which i culd have possibly went for... not gg for it 'like a man shd do' when it comes to relationships or wadsoever... in short, wishy-washy...
think i muz wake up my idea... wise up! so much time wasted, so many opportunities lost, its really time to take things LIKE A MAN! get wad u want, PRONTO!
bryan, thanx for helping me today... it really strikes me tt we r indeed different... ure very straightfwd when it comes to getting things u want but as for me, wishy-washy me... haiz... i think i shd be more like u...
dennis, dun fake liao... u keep telling ppl to go for things they want... u give ppl advice tt u urself even find very very inspiring... y dun u do something for urself? if its wad u want, go n get it! even if thr r ppl or things stopping u, it had better not be urself! defeat urself n go on!
i hope dis time, i will really be inspired to do it... pplz, mebe i will be acting a bit funny these days, but dun bother too much abt me... its just me, fighting my inner self... i hope to emerge a better man... soon...
wanna noe wad it is abt... just ask me... think i wuld be willing to tok...
think tt im a person whu dun really strive hard to get wad i want... y? well even i dunno... mebe its myself? mebe its shyness? or wad more? bcos of such a character i alwaes find myself on the losing end...
i think i have to come clean with myself... always caring too much about face n stuff... scared tt i lose face, or be sad if i dun get wad i set out for... so for simplicity i dun strive for anything n end up not getting anything...
y am i like tt i may ask myself... was it bcos of tt 1 incident back in jc whr thr were a few times i tried a shot at something i wanted n failed? tt one of them caused me to 'lose a great deal of face'? causing me to creep into my shell of protection n not come out?
well i didn exactly crawl in... its just tt i dun dare to reach out for wad i want now... dis thing has eventually affected my life a GREAT deal... lost sooo many chances which i culd have possibly went for... not gg for it 'like a man shd do' when it comes to relationships or wadsoever... in short, wishy-washy...
think i muz wake up my idea... wise up! so much time wasted, so many opportunities lost, its really time to take things LIKE A MAN! get wad u want, PRONTO!
bryan, thanx for helping me today... it really strikes me tt we r indeed different... ure very straightfwd when it comes to getting things u want but as for me, wishy-washy me... haiz... i think i shd be more like u...
dennis, dun fake liao... u keep telling ppl to go for things they want... u give ppl advice tt u urself even find very very inspiring... y dun u do something for urself? if its wad u want, go n get it! even if thr r ppl or things stopping u, it had better not be urself! defeat urself n go on!
i hope dis time, i will really be inspired to do it... pplz, mebe i will be acting a bit funny these days, but dun bother too much abt me... its just me, fighting my inner self... i hope to emerge a better man... soon...
wanna noe wad it is abt... just ask me... think i wuld be willing to tok...
Dennis ~ 1:56 am
Monday, September 12, 2005
ok 6 years have passed since the tragedy in New York city... when i saw in sheer disbelief tt 2 towers whic i read in books about n held in awe... fell to dust within 1 hour!!! so many poor souls lost their lives, crushed by th rubble that were once World Trade Centre... n to think they were just ordinary US citizens or other pplz, going to work like any other day...
it kinda makes me think whether we r all safe frm all de terrorism crap... truth is, we r far frm it... n dis idea was reinforced into me in de days i was in army... threats r real! n an operation is no laughing business! lives culd be lost! now culdnt those boliao ppl dun be so boliao? think planting bombs n stuff is fun? go blast urself to bits!!! rid society of a scourge like u! tts de community service u shd be doing...
n for those whu use religion to justify those deeds, shame on u! no god will advocate the taking of innocent lives! u dare think ure god? may u face de truth n ur retribution one day!
somehow, even such a long time has passed, n everyone's lives has moved on, id think back n lament on such an utter waste of human lives, innocence and public stability...
guys, if u all care for ur lives n those around u, its ur responsibility to care n protect them n urself... thr may be no nid to call-to-arms or wad, but just do wad u nid to do... onie thing is to remember tt we r not to take any lives indiscriminately, no matter wads de reason behind...
ok aft de solemn elegy for all them whu died in this unfortunate incident, n a reminder to all to take care of urself... its time to end things on a more light-hearted tone... shd sound positive hahaz... life goes on ya? so i have a little something to show all of u... laff if u muz... yea...
hahaz... funny rite? well i dun mean to laff at dis la... but even in de times of total darkness n gloom, thr will alwaes be a light... a light tt leads us to happiness... so if u think u r gg thru a crappy life now, think abt others... those whu r not as fortunate as u... like those whu lost their very lives in dis incident n their families...
it kinda makes me think whether we r all safe frm all de terrorism crap... truth is, we r far frm it... n dis idea was reinforced into me in de days i was in army... threats r real! n an operation is no laughing business! lives culd be lost! now culdnt those boliao ppl dun be so boliao? think planting bombs n stuff is fun? go blast urself to bits!!! rid society of a scourge like u! tts de community service u shd be doing...
n for those whu use religion to justify those deeds, shame on u! no god will advocate the taking of innocent lives! u dare think ure god? may u face de truth n ur retribution one day!
somehow, even such a long time has passed, n everyone's lives has moved on, id think back n lament on such an utter waste of human lives, innocence and public stability...
guys, if u all care for ur lives n those around u, its ur responsibility to care n protect them n urself... thr may be no nid to call-to-arms or wad, but just do wad u nid to do... onie thing is to remember tt we r not to take any lives indiscriminately, no matter wads de reason behind...
ok aft de solemn elegy for all them whu died in this unfortunate incident, n a reminder to all to take care of urself... its time to end things on a more light-hearted tone... shd sound positive hahaz... life goes on ya? so i have a little something to show all of u... laff if u muz... yea...
hahaz... funny rite? well i dun mean to laff at dis la... but even in de times of total darkness n gloom, thr will alwaes be a light... a light tt leads us to happiness... so if u think u r gg thru a crappy life now, think abt others... those whu r not as fortunate as u... like those whu lost their very lives in dis incident n their families...
Dennis ~ 1:22 am
Sunday, September 11, 2005
thru de midst of my intensive mugging n stuff... i realised i forgot to tok abt CSC AGM... mebe it didn really hold an impt place in my heart... yet... I just happened to wanna go thr, yea, support my frens whu r now in de MC... and mebe to eat de free food, which i in de end didn...
well, as u all might noe, i was doing my tutorials half de time inside tt LT... really really sorrie for being such a spoilsport... but well, think my very very hectic schedule made me not stop doing... havent been able to R&R for so long liao... with 2 weekends burnt to overwhelming assignments n tutorials... so thot of trying to clear a little more in de AGM... but alas, wif all de effort, it didn help (i still worked thru de weekend, with only rest time to type dis entry...) n ended up making myself look like a spoilsport... "might as well not go"... yah those words struck deep into my heart... i promise nvr again to do such xtra stuff, if u guys find me doing it again, tell me to stop... cos sometimes i cant control myself... thanx...
some other things i seen thr... ppl cried... not 1, not 2, but many of them in the 3rd MC! it seems like... really hard for them to leave n step down, but well, only they noes themselves... i wanna noe wad its really like to feel this way... sooo attached tt its hard to leave... but dis time, i gave up any thots of running for MC, partly due to my workload, n also, bcos im not mentally ready to take such a HUGE task... hopefully jam x n future projects will be able to train me adequately enuff... so 4th MC, i have faith in u all to do well! if thr be any thing u nid help in, i will alwaes be thr for u all!
kailoon's speech was one that got me really thinking... somehow i feel de same as him, thinking tt staying in yishun scs is enuff for me, n not making any effort to step out... if w/o ethelonter 2005, i guess i wuld be stuck in yishun n not noe anyone else in CSC... thanx bryan for opening tt door for me... thou i keep harping abt u "tricking" me to join as log head, i really muz thank u for giving me tt opportunity... once i have time, i will try my best to join in other RVPs to experience the many facets of life in CSC, i promise...
for now... just nid to finish all de crap schwork n stuff... so i wuld have more time for myself, my family my frens n ccas...
well, as u all might noe, i was doing my tutorials half de time inside tt LT... really really sorrie for being such a spoilsport... but well, think my very very hectic schedule made me not stop doing... havent been able to R&R for so long liao... with 2 weekends burnt to overwhelming assignments n tutorials... so thot of trying to clear a little more in de AGM... but alas, wif all de effort, it didn help (i still worked thru de weekend, with only rest time to type dis entry...) n ended up making myself look like a spoilsport... "might as well not go"... yah those words struck deep into my heart... i promise nvr again to do such xtra stuff, if u guys find me doing it again, tell me to stop... cos sometimes i cant control myself... thanx...
some other things i seen thr... ppl cried... not 1, not 2, but many of them in the 3rd MC! it seems like... really hard for them to leave n step down, but well, only they noes themselves... i wanna noe wad its really like to feel this way... sooo attached tt its hard to leave... but dis time, i gave up any thots of running for MC, partly due to my workload, n also, bcos im not mentally ready to take such a HUGE task... hopefully jam x n future projects will be able to train me adequately enuff... so 4th MC, i have faith in u all to do well! if thr be any thing u nid help in, i will alwaes be thr for u all!
kailoon's speech was one that got me really thinking... somehow i feel de same as him, thinking tt staying in yishun scs is enuff for me, n not making any effort to step out... if w/o ethelonter 2005, i guess i wuld be stuck in yishun n not noe anyone else in CSC... thanx bryan for opening tt door for me... thou i keep harping abt u "tricking" me to join as log head, i really muz thank u for giving me tt opportunity... once i have time, i will try my best to join in other RVPs to experience the many facets of life in CSC, i promise...
for now... just nid to finish all de crap schwork n stuff... so i wuld have more time for myself, my family my frens n ccas...
Dennis ~ 4:36 pm
Saturday, September 10, 2005
im worried...
im finally feeling the real stress of being APD of jam x... decision time! it seems tt 2 companies r vying to be main sponsors for our event, n both have different visions... n furthermore, both seem VERY attractive... but main sponsorship is a title which is only possible for one of them... n it means de other one will have to back out... since they dun seem any keen for co-sponsorship...
another issue is, wad if de company which we agree on backs out "due to unforseen circumstances"? wuld we be able to fall back on de one we rejected? or just have to face HORRIBLE defecits again? or do away wif de whole thing? NEVER!!!
nxt, both companies request funka n jam x together... but wad if funka wans company A n jam x prefers company B? how wuld we resolve dis?
mebe both companies can work together to bring funka n jam x to greater heights... but i noe tts wishful thinking on my part...
i really really have to make a decision soon... dis sponsorship conflict issue directly affects de finals venue... which in turn affects publicity drive which is starting on monday! n wad more, its bcos of dis issue... we cant print our posters! i really dunno wad to do...
coming to here i think i gotta say dis... robson, if u ever read my blog or wad, im really really REALLY sorry for how these events have turned out... i seen de efficiency of ur team n de things u have delivered n am truly impressed... but nevertheless, even wif such effort on ur side, even till de point tt u fell sick, de posters still cant be printed... really really sorry...
i think i cant write anymore... feel so blardy miserable liao...
n i shd log off n sleep... meeting one of them companies in a few hrs time... hopefully i can come to a decision pretty soon...
yea...
im finally feeling the real stress of being APD of jam x... decision time! it seems tt 2 companies r vying to be main sponsors for our event, n both have different visions... n furthermore, both seem VERY attractive... but main sponsorship is a title which is only possible for one of them... n it means de other one will have to back out... since they dun seem any keen for co-sponsorship...
another issue is, wad if de company which we agree on backs out "due to unforseen circumstances"? wuld we be able to fall back on de one we rejected? or just have to face HORRIBLE defecits again? or do away wif de whole thing? NEVER!!!
nxt, both companies request funka n jam x together... but wad if funka wans company A n jam x prefers company B? how wuld we resolve dis?
mebe both companies can work together to bring funka n jam x to greater heights... but i noe tts wishful thinking on my part...
i really really have to make a decision soon... dis sponsorship conflict issue directly affects de finals venue... which in turn affects publicity drive which is starting on monday! n wad more, its bcos of dis issue... we cant print our posters! i really dunno wad to do...
coming to here i think i gotta say dis... robson, if u ever read my blog or wad, im really really REALLY sorry for how these events have turned out... i seen de efficiency of ur team n de things u have delivered n am truly impressed... but nevertheless, even wif such effort on ur side, even till de point tt u fell sick, de posters still cant be printed... really really sorry...
i think i cant write anymore... feel so blardy miserable liao...
n i shd log off n sleep... meeting one of them companies in a few hrs time... hopefully i can come to a decision pretty soon...
yea...
Dennis ~ 1:50 am
Friday, September 09, 2005
another weekend coming... one which might not be any better than de last...
i do hope im wrong...
i do hope im wrong...
Dennis ~ 3:14 pm
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
everytime i come up here, i see de FF8 blogskin n wallpaper... i hear tt chrono cross theme... n start to wonder...
when can i start playing my beloved PS2 again?
yah thr r ppl whu cant afford it i noe... r they sad? i may not think so cos at least they dun have to even think abt spending such money... unlike me, whu spent a BIG CHUNK of my NS savings on it n now finds NO TIME to play... tts wad i call sadness... so close yet so far!
as chloe said, "life is sad n triste"... yea...
when can i start playing my beloved PS2 again?
yah thr r ppl whu cant afford it i noe... r they sad? i may not think so cos at least they dun have to even think abt spending such money... unlike me, whu spent a BIG CHUNK of my NS savings on it n now finds NO TIME to play... tts wad i call sadness... so close yet so far!
as chloe said, "life is sad n triste"... yea...
Dennis ~ 11:11 am
Monday, September 05, 2005
feeling damn boliao n shitty frm mugging now...
yo! my name is joe!
n i work~~~ in~~~ de chocolate factory
one day my boss came up to me n say:
joe! r u busy? i said no
turn~~ de button wif ur right hand
tsh tsh-tsh tsh tsh-tsh - tsh-tsh-tsh tsh tsh-tsh...
I BALRDY HATE ORGANIC CHEM!!! ARRRRRGH!!!
yo! my name is joe!
n i work~~~ in~~~ de chocolate factory
one day my boss came up to me n say:
joe! r u busy? i said no
turn~~ de button wif ur right hand
tsh tsh-tsh tsh tsh-tsh - tsh-tsh-tsh tsh tsh-tsh...
I BALRDY HATE ORGANIC CHEM!!! ARRRRRGH!!!
Dennis ~ 9:09 pm
difference in studying in school vs studying at home...
yah aft tt really horrible weekend i had, i realised tt it seems better to study in sch or mebe, in my kuok room... at least im able to concentrate better n not worry abt stuff like, "Im studying, sufferinf, tearing my head apart, while everyone else is playing! ARRRGH!" at least down here, when i mug, ppl mug ard me, n makes me feel less of an outcast...
also, at home TOO MUCH DISTRACTIONS liao... thr is princess, whu OH SO LURVES to disturb me when she sees me deep in my books... n thr r my dear cuzzins whu OH SO LURVES to play wif her... making matters OH SO worse... thrs TV which alwaes beckons me to "STOP STUDYING N WATCH ME!!! heheh... got something nice to show u =P"... then anxiety comes, depression comes... wad left is history...
so i think i shall make FULL USE of my weekdays to MUG MUG MUG in hall n sch... n when i go home in de weekends, do less n spend more quailty time wif my family n frens...
when exam draws near n i cant find time for any relaxation... de most sign xtra n stay back in kuok to MUG MUG MUG lor...
sadz life hor?
yah aft tt really horrible weekend i had, i realised tt it seems better to study in sch or mebe, in my kuok room... at least im able to concentrate better n not worry abt stuff like, "Im studying, sufferinf, tearing my head apart, while everyone else is playing! ARRRGH!" at least down here, when i mug, ppl mug ard me, n makes me feel less of an outcast...
also, at home TOO MUCH DISTRACTIONS liao... thr is princess, whu OH SO LURVES to disturb me when she sees me deep in my books... n thr r my dear cuzzins whu OH SO LURVES to play wif her... making matters OH SO worse... thrs TV which alwaes beckons me to "STOP STUDYING N WATCH ME!!! heheh... got something nice to show u =P"... then anxiety comes, depression comes... wad left is history...
so i think i shall make FULL USE of my weekdays to MUG MUG MUG in hall n sch... n when i go home in de weekends, do less n spend more quailty time wif my family n frens...
when exam draws near n i cant find time for any relaxation... de most sign xtra n stay back in kuok to MUG MUG MUG lor...
sadz life hor?
Dennis ~ 12:06 pm
Sunday, September 04, 2005
yah think i have finally seen de light aft a tumultous nite... feels better now... just wondering tt simply working can bring out so much stress n unhappiness in an individual... haiz~
last nite was really one tt i hope i will nvr experience again... i had to juggle A LOT of stuff in 1 time... cos i nid to do an online quiz thr n then, as well as submit a lab report and prepare for another lab and 2 tests, one of which is ORGANIC CHEM, not forgetting the tutorials due nxt week... just thinking of them unnerves me already... so even though i had done the lab report earlier to allow me more time to do other stuff... but, it only took a friend to point out the mistakes in my report and thus it means redoing it! so all de effort last week... down the drain... i had to face tt tight situation again...
well, the above is only studies... even thou i had my status on msn as a big "BUSY" word... thr was still more stuff pouring in... i had to deviate frm my studies to look at the jam x poster cos the font wasn't tt nice... then thr was tt proposal im supposed to send in for yishun scs year end camp... of which bryan rejected nearly all my ideas! well, im not sore of having my ideas scrapped, but it means coming up wif A LOT more ideas... wads worse is tt de report is due on wednesday! then thr was the constant reminder tt thr was a lot of things to do for jam x... like confirming the venue, checking for the amenities they r giving, any official event companies, getting their logo since the posters have to be printed... really just want to put all of them aside for a week or so... but well i think its impossible... "too many things to do liao"
all these stuff just pile up upon me, layer by layer, till i feel like a piece of rock undergoing sedimentation... such a heavy load! n the constant reminder of "many things to do" completely demoralises me... till the point whr i finally broke down at 3am... yes i noe it does not sound MANLY at all for a guy to cry BUT I DID!!! tears just clouded my vision n i cant concentrate on my studies n work... all the time thinking "Y is thr so much work to do??? Y???" Realised tt any more cramming will neither improve my situation nor improve my near zero productivity. I just gave it all up n went for bed...
dis morning, i woke up rather early... again, not enuff sleep... but at least i feel better, shrugged it off as stormy weather n aft my breakfast, continued my battle...it seems easier now, wif a clear mind to do stuff n i think by now ive completed more than half my organic chem test prep... feel so relieved...
so now, after a good shower, i think i really nid to pen down all these in case i forget such a nite i had been thru... think id better ask for an extension for my proposal to be handed in so tt i can finish my stuff wif ease of mind...
so pplz, if u find tt ure getting so stressed tt it seems u cannot take it anymore, take a rest... dun keep thinking tt by resting u give urself less time onie... cos reeling in tt kind of shock wun help matters at all... n also, if u actually find a fren undergoing such a situation... just ignore him, cos i think any kind of words u tell him/her will make it worse... erm... de most force him to get off those n rest up... NEVER EVER remind him/her of de work to be done, its no better than giving him even more things to worry...
i think all of us r learning along as we live, how to interact n how to handle things well... so well i shall treat wad has happened to me as a lesson... hopefully i can handle such situations better nxt time... yea...
i think i muz thank god tt i didn take any extra modules or ran for any MC, be it CSC or CAC... cos if i did, i might have to make an appointment wif some psychiatrist by now hahaz
last nite was really one tt i hope i will nvr experience again... i had to juggle A LOT of stuff in 1 time... cos i nid to do an online quiz thr n then, as well as submit a lab report and prepare for another lab and 2 tests, one of which is ORGANIC CHEM, not forgetting the tutorials due nxt week... just thinking of them unnerves me already... so even though i had done the lab report earlier to allow me more time to do other stuff... but, it only took a friend to point out the mistakes in my report and thus it means redoing it! so all de effort last week... down the drain... i had to face tt tight situation again...
well, the above is only studies... even thou i had my status on msn as a big "BUSY" word... thr was still more stuff pouring in... i had to deviate frm my studies to look at the jam x poster cos the font wasn't tt nice... then thr was tt proposal im supposed to send in for yishun scs year end camp... of which bryan rejected nearly all my ideas! well, im not sore of having my ideas scrapped, but it means coming up wif A LOT more ideas... wads worse is tt de report is due on wednesday! then thr was the constant reminder tt thr was a lot of things to do for jam x... like confirming the venue, checking for the amenities they r giving, any official event companies, getting their logo since the posters have to be printed... really just want to put all of them aside for a week or so... but well i think its impossible... "too many things to do liao"
all these stuff just pile up upon me, layer by layer, till i feel like a piece of rock undergoing sedimentation... such a heavy load! n the constant reminder of "many things to do" completely demoralises me... till the point whr i finally broke down at 3am... yes i noe it does not sound MANLY at all for a guy to cry BUT I DID!!! tears just clouded my vision n i cant concentrate on my studies n work... all the time thinking "Y is thr so much work to do??? Y???" Realised tt any more cramming will neither improve my situation nor improve my near zero productivity. I just gave it all up n went for bed...
dis morning, i woke up rather early... again, not enuff sleep... but at least i feel better, shrugged it off as stormy weather n aft my breakfast, continued my battle...it seems easier now, wif a clear mind to do stuff n i think by now ive completed more than half my organic chem test prep... feel so relieved...
so now, after a good shower, i think i really nid to pen down all these in case i forget such a nite i had been thru... think id better ask for an extension for my proposal to be handed in so tt i can finish my stuff wif ease of mind...
so pplz, if u find tt ure getting so stressed tt it seems u cannot take it anymore, take a rest... dun keep thinking tt by resting u give urself less time onie... cos reeling in tt kind of shock wun help matters at all... n also, if u actually find a fren undergoing such a situation... just ignore him, cos i think any kind of words u tell him/her will make it worse... erm... de most force him to get off those n rest up... NEVER EVER remind him/her of de work to be done, its no better than giving him even more things to worry...
i think all of us r learning along as we live, how to interact n how to handle things well... so well i shall treat wad has happened to me as a lesson... hopefully i can handle such situations better nxt time... yea...
i think i muz thank god tt i didn take any extra modules or ran for any MC, be it CSC or CAC... cos if i did, i might have to make an appointment wif some psychiatrist by now hahaz
Dennis ~ 2:06 pm
Saturday, September 03, 2005
hmm... chemical engineering...
Fundamental theorem of Calculus, Cahn-Ingold-Prelog Rules, Laws of Thermodynamics, enthalpy, int main(void), gibbs free energy, fluid mechanics, argumentative flaws, electronegativity, Carnot cycle engine, Hammond Postulate, isentropic process, vapour pressure, entegen/zuzammen, relative saturation, tetrahydrofuran, absolute humidity, virial equation, flash distillation column, Markovnikov's Rule, double array[6][6], operation line, Ideal Gas Equation of State, feed products, hyperconjugation, flue gas, reflux ratio, vinylic carbocations, adenosine triphosphate, nucleophillic substitution, empirical Antoine equation, gibbs phase rule, Newton's Laws of Motion, L'Hopitals Rule, tray efficiency, interfacial tension, regiochemistry, deoxyribonucleic acid, maximum buffering capacity, oxymercuration, void function(int, double, char[][], int **), nomenclature, lipid membranes, sp hybridization...
ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
Fundamental theorem of Calculus, Cahn-Ingold-Prelog Rules, Laws of Thermodynamics, enthalpy, int main(void), gibbs free energy, fluid mechanics, argumentative flaws, electronegativity, Carnot cycle engine, Hammond Postulate, isentropic process, vapour pressure, entegen/zuzammen, relative saturation, tetrahydrofuran, absolute humidity, virial equation, flash distillation column, Markovnikov's Rule, double array[6][6], operation line, Ideal Gas Equation of State, feed products, hyperconjugation, flue gas, reflux ratio, vinylic carbocations, adenosine triphosphate, nucleophillic substitution, empirical Antoine equation, gibbs phase rule, Newton's Laws of Motion, L'Hopitals Rule, tray efficiency, interfacial tension, regiochemistry, deoxyribonucleic acid, maximum buffering capacity, oxymercuration, void function(int, double, char[][], int **), nomenclature, lipid membranes, sp hybridization...
ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
Dennis ~ 6:02 pm
Thursday, September 01, 2005
well, i noe thr r many out thr whu r unhappy... i mean REALLY unhappy... tt weilian became Superstar 2005... u wished it had been someone else, someone whu u really like to be Superstar...
ask urself, did u vote for ur 'someone else'?
if u did, ok u tried ur best, so dun be so sad abt it... yea...
if u didn, i really find it funny... expect ur 'someone else' to just become Superstar wif no effort frm u? Dun make me laff!
ask urself, did u vote for ur 'someone else'?
if u did, ok u tried ur best, so dun be so sad abt it... yea...
if u didn, i really find it funny... expect ur 'someone else' to just become Superstar wif no effort frm u? Dun make me laff!
Dennis ~ 11:18 pm