el_M: In the moonlight...

Sunday, September 11, 2005

thru de midst of my intensive mugging n stuff... i realised i forgot to tok abt CSC AGM... mebe it didn really hold an impt place in my heart... yet... I just happened to wanna go thr, yea, support my frens whu r now in de MC... and mebe to eat de free food, which i in de end didn...

well, as u all might noe, i was doing my tutorials half de time inside tt LT... really really sorrie for being such a spoilsport... but well, think my very very hectic schedule made me not stop doing... havent been able to R&R for so long liao... with 2 weekends burnt to overwhelming assignments n tutorials... so thot of trying to clear a little more in de AGM... but alas, wif all de effort, it didn help (i still worked thru de weekend, with only rest time to type dis entry...) n ended up making myself look like a spoilsport... "might as well not go"... yah those words struck deep into my heart... i promise nvr again to do such xtra stuff, if u guys find me doing it again, tell me to stop... cos sometimes i cant control myself... thanx...

some other things i seen thr... ppl cried... not 1, not 2, but many of them in the 3rd MC! it seems like... really hard for them to leave n step down, but well, only they noes themselves... i wanna noe wad its really like to feel this way... sooo attached tt its hard to leave... but dis time, i gave up any thots of running for MC, partly due to my workload, n also, bcos im not mentally ready to take such a HUGE task... hopefully jam x n future projects will be able to train me adequately enuff... so 4th MC, i have faith in u all to do well! if thr be any thing u nid help in, i will alwaes be thr for u all!

kailoon's speech was one that got me really thinking... somehow i feel de same as him, thinking tt staying in yishun scs is enuff for me, n not making any effort to step out... if w/o ethelonter 2005, i guess i wuld be stuck in yishun n not noe anyone else in CSC... thanx bryan for opening tt door for me... thou i keep harping abt u "tricking" me to join as log head, i really muz thank u for giving me tt opportunity... once i have time, i will try my best to join in other RVPs to experience the many facets of life in CSC, i promise...

for now... just nid to finish all de crap schwork n stuff... so i wuld have more time for myself, my family my frens n ccas...

Dennis ~ 4:36 pm