its past midnite... n i just got home onie... AGM... bittersweet feeling...
dis is de 3rd CSC AGM i attended... already de 3rd... m i tt old alr? i got 2 batches of juniors below liao leh... wanna feel like a freshie again... althou tts as simple as FAT HOPE...
AGM just made it clearer tt im into another phase of mi life alr... changes again... cant say i hate it... but too much of these makes mi tired... yup... tired...
izit bcos i become a senior alr? have i lost de drive? yea i told miself b4 tt i dun wanna spend much time on CCAs since i got onie 2 yrs left in uni liao... yea it worked... n i paid a price... it seemed tt things i viewed as part of mi 2 yrs ago seemed unimportant liao... dunno...
as i saw de transition frm de 4th MC to de 5th... it just seemed so... unfamiliar... awkward... it seems like im not really part of it anymore... so redundant... im sorry if u guys get to see dis... but tts really wad i felt...
nevertheless, i still have close frens... mer, toon, fwed, mei mei... u all still made mi feel like i still wanna contribute... loved tt feeling n i hope to love it again... heartfelt thanx to u all...
babe... still missing u... feeling like counting down to de end of de sem liao...