el_M: In the moonlight...

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

exams r over, but wonder y it seems tt my life is still in the same tempo as b4... really, dis hols does not look in any way like one... thrs so many things to settle!!! so much so tt im still gg to NUS as if its a normal sch day... i really hate it...

since sat i had been gg down to sch, n dis is not gonna stop till fri... all for moving out of kuok, CSC, jam x... urgh!!!

things have not been gg too well for jam x too... lots of stuff to resolve... n at times i really wanna scream n snap at ppl... but realise tt it wun be of any use... it is de time to move fwd liao... no use pulling ppl back n find faults n stuff yea...

i muz trudge on!!! brace myself for it all!!! i muz get myself n all things i do out of this blardy mess!!! muz believe in myself!!! but sometimes, i simply cant find de strength...

wonder how it will be like when sch starts... think i wun be fully-recharged to face a new sem... id rather think i wun even be recharged at all! mite end up even more tired... shitz...

dis hols mite be one tt i will look back wif regrets... regrets of not spending time wif my family n frens... regrets of not enjoying myself to max... regrets of not even treasuring dis hols... regrets...

to think all those things im doing now, i wun be paid even a cent! even slaves have it better, at least they have food n lodging taken care of, no matter how fucked up! i have nuthing... all food still on my own acct...

im so not gg to take anymore projects or so in de nxt hols already... at least not in any OC... so how to get CCA points to stay in school? heck care liao!

to all my frens whu come across dis: i nid strength! give me if u think u can... yea...

dun like dis hols... at all!

Dennis ~ 12:09 am