el_M: In the moonlight...

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

after a good dose (or is it bad?) of Happy Tree Friends Theme and Elmo Song today... el_M was horribly jolted back to reality...

yea de harsh reality of life... ure supposed to live up to some predetermined expectations, and u r expected to change urself... possibly to even show a false front... just to make ppl happy... im seriously not tt kinda person!

things r rather... censored in dis world... things r not shown in full light, to give the full picture... i thought i could just keep myself frm falling into this shit by saying wad i wan... doing wad i wan... but sadly..............

i cant do wad i wan! muz keep reminding myself tt i onie have 24hrs a day... at de rate im going, instead of 7hrs of sleep a day as we all shd have... i onie have 3hrs! whr got time to do wad i wan?

i cant say wad i wan! we see bloggers getting charged today... whu noes wads gonna happen... well, mebe u can see me in jail tmr perhaps for saying dis... yea... but other than dis, i was told to keep a restraint on myself todae! but... i just wanna say wad i wanna say, y blardy bottle up??? im not hurting anyone wif my words! just tt sometimes ppl may disagree wif my point of view?

im certainly not a saint... i cant just be happy always and always give ppl happiness... just like how i want it to be... sometimes i thot of dis ideal world tt everyone will be happy n contented... wouldn't it be nice? but yea... back to reality, this kida idealised notion DOES NOT EXIST!

y cant we all be happy? even if we are, y is happiness onie transient? is thr such a thing as eternal happiness? sometimes i wonder...

Dennis ~ 3:00 am